| Week | Week start date | Days I wrote | Words written | Time used | WPH (avg) | WPH (writing) |
| W-7 | Mar 9, 2015 | 6 | 4969 | 12:31 | 397 | 449 |
Re: Scheduling
So this is the end of my second week of early mornings, and it's working out fairly well. I fall asleep quite easily between 8:30 and 9:30, but still have a bit of trouble hauling myself out of bed. Also I've noticed that when I first started this I used to start writing right away, but now that I'm getting used to the schedule I spend time "waking up" with email checks just like I used to do in the evenings, so even though I get up 2 hours earlier, I only get about 1h20 of writing time in. And I hate when I'm on a roll and have to stop because I have to go to the real job.
This of course makes me flip flop back to 'why not just go back to nights?' If I'm going to 'waste' 40 minutes, I rather use that time to 'wake up' with a jog after the kids are in bed and then plow away with writing. That would also mean my social schedule gets less perturbed, and if I was on a roll I could run with it and push through work on less sleep, going to bed early to catch up. That inconsistent sleep schedule is bad for your overall health though. And my husband says I'm less cranky when I get up early, and less dead when I come home from work, heh. It's what I've been doing all my life though, so I feel myself gravitating to it.
Re: The long, long road...
This week was also the first major discrepancy between what I wrote and what I kept. So even though I wrote 4969, only 4550 remain. That stung.
I should be happy that I'm up to almost 5k a week. In the beginning that seemed like something I would never reach, but I still feel like it's not enough. Right now a lot of my weekly count is happening on the Tuesdays and Thursdays I have free. That's going to end, and then what? Back to the 1500-2000 words a week? Can't happen; I need to meet my goals. I'm impatient! The end of the road looks so far away, and then there's editing, and cover design, and marketing, and business stuff, and mailing lists, and figuring out how to stay anonymous.
I read somewhere that whenever you tackle a long task that you should visualize yourself a year from now, and looking back would you have wanted to start in on it earlier, even if it was just a little bit every day? And of course the answer would be yes. Even if I only have half a book the answer will be yes. But once I've got my mind into something I just want to dive right into it and burn through it until it's done. The fact that I can't because of my job is killing me.
I used to love my current job; I even proclaimed that it was the best job in the world, and I really did feel that way. Now every tiny little thing is getting to me, even if 90% of the time things are good, the 10% eats at my brain. And it comes down to the fact that I still work for someone else.
That's never really fit with me.
I started a dog walking business when I was 9. I did desktop publishing layouts in high school and early university but I felt more like a contractor. In my current part-time teaching job I feel like I'm in my own game, me and the students. I have a Department Head, but s/he doesn't tell me what to do; I just give him/her the grades. There's a freedom there. But in my bread-and-butter job I have a clear boss who I report to every week (and my new boss manages very differently than the old one. I used to feel like a team member whose ideas were appreciated; now I feel like a cog in the wheel who should just shut up and do the work.) While I enjoy the work and feel like I'm making a difference, the fact that it's employment won't change, and the environment is so very dependent on the personality of the person I report to. It's the fatal flaw that's gnawing at me, and making me quite unhappy with what most people would fall head over heels for.
I was reading on KBoards that there's no need to try to advance in two careers at the same time, and it hit me that that's really what I'm trying to do. I'm trying to get a promotion at work (largely so I only need to work one job to make ends meet instead of a full-time job plus a part-time job), and I'm trying to make this writing thing viable. I need to not give so much of myself to my day-job. I put in many hundreds of hours of unpaid overtime a year (I'm salaried, so it's expected), but I need to start delegating and protecting my time. Something has to give, and I can't expect my little boys to be the ones who have to go without their mommy. Sadly, that has been the case during peak periods at work, when they'd be heading to bed when I came home. That lasts 4-6 months. Brutal.
As an aside: I've never really blogged before I started this one, but man, writing all that stuff out is therapeutic. Reminds me of a study I read that showed that people who journal tend to have a better outlook, almost as much as those who go to therapy. I can see that.
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